worried

a queer agitation and melancholy can sneak up on a guy if he’s not careful. it seems if one tries to focus too much energy on not worrying about something it can get to the point where he’s got all kinds of twisting and pulling and uncomfortable warmth in the depth of his stomach. it just makes you want to eat something to make it go away. anything really, although something cool and smooth like cottage cheese really sounds soothing...or jello.

or jello and cottage cheese.

oh that reminds me of when i was a little kid. coming home after school and finding a box of jello in the fridge and making it. it was so magical to put hot water into a powder and dissolve it all up before putting it into the fridge where it got all stiff and jelly-ey. then i would try and make it last and i would hide the bowl of jello in the back of the fridge as if no one would be able to find it. but of course they would, leading me to decide that if i wanted it all to myself i had to eat it in about two sittings, which of course led me to eating a ridiculous amount of jello.