hips and leaves

my green thumb seems to have momentarily lapsed.
i went from being a person with an all-together black thumb to a person with a somewhat pulsating neon green thumb overnight when i met heather.
everything i planted grew...
i planted two appleseeds and they grew into trees.
i planted three avocado seeds and they grew into avocado plants.
i bought a myriad of different plant and spread them throughout the house and they flourished, and i cared for them and there was peace.
that was over the last two and a half years...but now the plants are slowly going on me and i'm sad. i try and i try but i work alot and heather doesn't really look after them at all, because she assumes that i do.
i'm afraid that when i go away for a business trip that i'll come back to a bunch of dead and dying plants. i feel like i've failed them. that i haven't given them enough attention... that i've been negligent in determining their needs. i haven't talked to them in a long time.

my grandmother fell and broke her hip. she has lost most of her short term memory. she keeps a somewhat chipper attitude, but inside i can hear that she is tired and kind of giving up.
i am far away and unable to get home.
i hope she doesn't think i don't love her.