so i'm beginning to wonder...
what does it say about me that i usually spend a lot of time thinking about where i'll be going next?... besides the fact that i move often. i'm sensing a bit of overall restlessness in my lifestyle. it is a strange contradiction that a job with so much security might leave so much open to chance.
does the fact that i focus so much on where i'll be 8 months from now mean that i'm somehow not experiencing the present? am i living in the future? and if so, is that a bad thing? or does it crush my instinctive, seat-of-the-pants approach to life? or does it exacerbate it.
so many questions. all i know is that i spend a lot of time waiting for things to happen, instead of making them happen. i just hope i'm not solidifying a lifetimes worth of patterns here.
i suppose we shall see.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
wanderer
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Aaaah, that trademark Paddy restlessness is surfacing... Hm. I'm actually going to disagree with you about the "waiting for things to happen" bit. You are an absolute "do-er" in life, and don't you forget it! But if you find that old restlessness kicking in, you might want to ask yourself what's missing, or what you're avoiding, in the here and now, and what will be different or better 8 months from now. I imagine, though, that it's natural to focus on where you'll be in 8 months if you don't already know -- probably a fairly common obsession, in your business. (A business which, by the way, makes a seat-of-the-pants lifestyle pretty difficult, I would imagine.) Anyway, short of being Marty McFly, living in the future is pretty damn tricky, but I'd bet you're living pretty well in your head. Get out, shoot some pictures of beautiful things, have a long talk with your ma/sis, go dancing with your pals, and see if that doesn't help bring you out of your head and into the moment.
Let's try to catch up soon though, eh??
Gotta say--I understand about living in the future. Whenever I feel "stuck" in the present, with no hope/possibility of changing things up in the next year or so, I end up being irritable and unable to focus.
Just like some people have to be rooted in the past in order to enjoy the present, I think others have to be stretching tendrils into the future in order to fully live the present. Or something like that...
i think your perceived restlessness comes from the adventurous spirit alive in you. always looking for more, for your next adventure... not a bad thing...you also have an amazing capacity to enjoy the moment to savor all the flavors and smells and experiences as they happen...enjoy!! you are amazing and you are looking forward...
Carpe diem!!
I've often wondered that about you myself.
It's good to look ahead, plan goals- prepare like a boyscout. Just don't forget to live in the moment.
"Yesterday is history, tomorrow a mystery. Today? Today is a gift. That's why we call it the present."
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